When she was young, she liked Yuguang Ge, who highlighted sections in her textbook for her, prepared snacks for her, and helped pull the blanket over her when she was sleeping. Even if she had those feelings long ago and felt them less intensely over time, he was still very warm, caring and protective of her when they met again not long ago.
Yuguang took care of her when she had a fever that night after filming "The Palace" and when Qian Ge schemed to kidnap her. The following day, after he learned that she was interested in "Three Thousand Lunatics," he silently helped her land a role in the production.
After He Jichen got into an argument with her at the Four Seasons Hotel because of Lin Zhengyi, Yuguang Ge appeared when she was hiding in the apartment they shared. He cheered her up and took care of her. That day, she even caught him looking at her photo which had the words she hadn't forgotten till this day: I wish you would be lost forever and come to my side.
During New Year's, she went to Yunnan alone because of the rumor Qian Ge started. She accidentally twisted her ankle, and when she was stuck helplessly by the side of the road, Yuguang Ge came to her aid at the last minute. He even rushed over to Lijiang overnight just to personally see her. Most importantly, that was the day she discovered a huge secret behind the jade. During the three years she was in a coma, the person who came to visit her on the eighteenth of every month was Yuguang Ge. He was the only person in this world who didn't forget her when she fell from the peak of her career and hit rock bottom.
Yuguang Ge treated her really, really, really, well... how could she do such a thing to let him down?
"Miss, your change." The waiter who took her payment had returned with few notes.
Ji Yi gave a gentle nod but didn't make a sound.
The waiter put the money on the table and left.
After some time, Ji Yi picked up the money and walked out of the restaurant in a daze. She walked down the street with no particular direction or purpose.
The cars at midnight were a little fast; one car after another sped infinitely past her at an ear-splitting speed. Too dazed to take any notice of her surroundings, she walked ahead blankly.
With no idea how long she had been walking for, her feet started to blister. When she simply couldn't move because of the pain, she found a spot by the side of the road and crouched down.
She wasn't stupid. When she read the words "I wish you would be lost forever and come to my side" in Yuguang Ge's room, she knew that Yuguang had feelings for her.
At the time, it wasn't like she wasn't moved, but she thought back to what happened between her and He Jichen that night four years ago, so she tried her best to hold back.
But now, during their marriage, she actually did something like this to betray him...
She let down Yuguang Ge's kindness and she let down Yuguang Ge's deep feelings for her.
Now, not only did she not know how to face He Jichen, but she didn't even know how to get in touch with Yuguang Ge.
With that thought, Ji Yi buried her head between her knees.
Like a helpless child, she stayed like that feebly for a long time before she looked up. She glanced at the empty street and slowly helped herself up while leaning on a lamppost.
She gained a sense of direction after a moment then headed for the hotel.
Just as she was about to reach the hotel entrance, her feet stopped when she saw a pharmacy by the twenty-four-hour restaurant.
She stared at the bright lights of the pharmacy for some time before her hand instinctively touched her abdomen. She started to walk over.