But, don't I like Yuguang Ge? How could I have feelings for He Jichen?
When a person truly likes someone, wouldn't they avoid liking anyone else?
How could He Jichen enter my heart if I already have Yuguang Ge?
Could it be that one of those feelings is an illusion?
Ji Yi instinctively pursed her lips and thought it over seriously in her mind.
If she didn't have He Yuguang in her life, her heart would ache. Without He Jichen, she would be in pain too.
This meant she cared about both men.
What's wrong with me? How can I have feelings for both men?
Ji Yi's heart felt incomparably flustered.
Sitting opposite her, He Jichen was instantly immersed in her reply: "I can't accept it."
Earlier that evening, when he couldn't control himself and slept with her, he already wanted to take responsibility then.
He knew deep down that maybe she didn't need him to take responsibility, especially since she hid from him when she woke up the following day. He knew this in his heart, yet he was still insistent on looking for her to tell her that he wanted to take responsibility.
But just as he expected, she rejected him...
He Jichen's gaze fell as he hid the darkness in his eyes. He waited until the anguish in his heart disappeared before saying, "Is it because of my older brother?"
He Jichen spoke so suddenly that he startled Ji Yi. Her fingertips trembled reflexively as she realized that her mind had wandered throughout their conversation.
There were some things he didn't dare ask, for fear that he wouldn't be able to face the answer.
But in that very moment, he couldn't not ask.
He Jichen didn't dare look up to meet Ji Yi's gaze as he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to suppress the anguish and sorrow. "Is it because you guys got fake married, or because..."
Before He Jichen could finish, he felt a stifling pain in his chest which made it difficult for him to breathe. "... many years passed and you still like him?"
If it was just because she and He Yuguang were fake married, he didn't need to take responsibility and the solution would be easy. He could tell her that the person she fake-married wasn't his older brother, but it was him. However, if she still liked his older brother... He Jichen stopped at that, as he didn't dare continue with that thought.
If he didn't notice that I was moved by him ten minutes ago, he'll definitely know by my reply.
But now, having realized that there were two men in her heart, Ji Yi didn't know how to answer him.
She liked Yuguang Ge, and her feelings were pure.
She was moved by He Jichen too, but she couldn't like him freely because she liked Yuguang Ge.
Judging by the way she was now, she wasn't worthy of liking Yuguang Ge, nor was she worthy of He Jichen's responsibility.
So, I have to uphold the decision I made last night... I can't hesitate anymore. Even if I'm in pain, all I can do is endure it. Who told me to let my love life get to such an absurd state!
I brought all this upon myself and I can't blame anyone!
At that thought, Ji Yi gulped hard and bluntly ignored He Jichen's question. With her calmest demeanor, she said, "He Jichen, let's pretend what happened last night never happened."
As Ji Yi said this, her hands involuntarily balled up into fists.
To prevent her voice from cracking and to soothe her aching heart, she dug her fingernails into her palms hard to mask her pain.