Qiao Anhao remained silent, the two of them staring at each other. After a long while, Lu Jinnian's lashes fluttered, and he returned back to his senses. He straightened and stared straight into her eyes, remembering that he was about to ask her if she was going to go back to Xu Jiamu now that he was discharged from the hospital.
In the end, before he could ask his question, she had already told him that she was leaving...
He knew that all they had was a short lived happiness. He also knew that they would separate eventually, but he had never expected for it to come so abruptly... Just a moment ago, she had made him breakfast, had let him feel blissful and touched, but the very next one, she had caused him to fall straight into h.e.l.l. The higher you go, the harder the fall, and the pain left him in a daze.
But she was, after all, not his. No matter how beautiful the hallucination is, it is not real, and today was the day he finally woke up, the day he returned back to square one.
Lu Jinnian blinked, feeling his throat tighten. After a while, when the sting in his eyes faded, he spoke. "You..."
Even one word was enough to send his throat choking again. He paused and used ten seconds to calm himself once more before continuing, "… when are you prepared to leave?"
Qiao Anhao looked at him, her eyes dark. She did not answer instantly but waited a bit.
"Today?" Lu Jinnian's hands started to tremble, and he muttered something under his breath. His lips pressed into a thin line, and his breathing started to turn inconsistent. "Must you..."
Before he could finish his sentence, he fell limp onto the chair, staring up at the ceiling. He had on a calm expression, but no one could know how painfully his heart was aching.
Ever since they reunited, he knew that this day would arrive, but he had never expected to find out that she was leaving the moment before she was going to move.
He really wanted to ask her "Must you leave?".
He really wanted to ask "Can't you stay and live with me?".
He really wanted to ask "Qiao Qiao, did you know? I have loved you my entire youth, and now that my youth is ending, can't you give me a happy ending?".
But the girl that he loved was his brother's lover, it was a dead end. Who could tell him exactly how to solve this?
The words lingered at the tip of his tongue, his logic forcing them back.
He was afraid that the moment he voiced them, they would turn awkward, ending their relations.h.i.+p.
He didn't want to live his life in regret.
Lu Jinnian took a while to reply. In the end, he took a deep breath, straightened his body, and looked at her calmly. "Let me send you."
Qiao Anhao shook her head. "It's okay, I'll get Zhao Meng to bring me."
"Let me send you to Zhao Meng's house," Lu Jinnian said the moment she finished her sentence.
Qiao Anhao pondered for a while. In the end, she didn't reject him but instead nodded her head slightly. "Okay."
Lu Jinnian didn't speak, he turned and looked out the window.
Qiao Anhao sat silently for a while before breaking the silence. "I'll go up to pack."