The bedroom was almost dark with only the faint, warm glow from the night lamp in the corner of the bedroom. Lu Jinnian used his elbow to prop half his body up as Qiao Anhao laid flat below him. His eyes brightened and dimmed as he looked into her eyes, his breath unstable from the kiss.
His fiery gaze, or maybe the long absence of intimacy, caused Qiao Anhao to feel increasingly more anxious, her face flushed as though it was their first time.
Lu Jinnian stared at her, taking in her shy but mesmerizing expression. He seemed to have been influenced as well, anxiety spreading across him. Even though he had kissed her against the wall earlier on impulse, his senses had already returned. His body was clearly aroused, and now that it had started, he could no longer hold it in, but he still suppressed his inner desires to ask her out of respect, "Qiao Qiao, can I continue?"
It wasn't a transaction, he wasn't a subst.i.tute - it was purely just the two of them. Was it okay?
Lu Jinnian's voice was soft, with a hint of seduction, sending a s.h.i.+ver down Qiao Anhao's spine. Her heart thumped rapidly, her lashes trembled, and deep inside, she had already agreed. But how could she say it out and yet still keep her dignity?
Lu Jinnian could no longer keep his desires. Impatient but not willing to force her, he reached out his hand to pull her zipper slowly, as though seeking her permission.
When his fingers brushed past her skin, a numbing sensation pulsed throughout Qiao Anhao, sending desire down her spine. Instinctively, she grabbed onto the bed sheets below her, and gradually, she shut her trembling lashes.
Lu Jinnian had been focusing on her all this while. When he confirmed that there wasn't disgust or unwillingness on her face, he mustered up his courage, slowly pulling her nightgown off…
Even though it wasn't their first time, he was more careful than he had ever been.
In the past, when it happened, it was either when they were drunk , he was sick and unconscious, or when he wasn't willing to let her get close to other guys, using the transaction as a reason. There was even once when he lost control and raped her in the car out of jealousy for Xu Jiamu...
Truthfully, if a man really loves a woman, just looking at her is enough to stir his desires. No matter the reason behind the act, the man would always feel satisfied but every time it ended, he would feel lousy about himself if it was under bad circ.u.mstances.
Tonight was the very first time that both Lu Jinnian's body and heart were able to be satisfied and content.
Because this was the very first time he used only his own ident.i.ty, that of Lu Jinnian, to experience the most intimate act with her.
Maybe Qiao Anhao was too tired or maybe she was too sleepy, but when it ended, she rested her head on his chest, falling into a deep sleep.
But Lu Jinnian was wide awake, his eyes open as he gazed at Qiao Anhao, who was nestled in his arms, his heart agitated.
After a long while, he finally managed to fall asleep. The next morning, the moment he opened his eyes, he looked down at Qiao Anhao, who was still in his arms. Even though she was still fast asleep, everything felt surreal. He reached out to caress her face, and it felt warm beneath his fingers. Only then did he believe that the night before was not a dream.