Life's Magic Chapter 27
I held my mother in my arms as we waited for the result. Dad came back after a moment, looking haggard and stressed out. He hadn't slept and my guilt doubled because I felt so fucking useless. I kept redialing Donatella's line, yet it still went directly to voicemail. So I gave up calling her once and for all and focused my full attention to the present, to where I'm at exactly.
An hour after, the doctors declared Mathew Caldwell dead at eleven fifty in the morning, twenty-third of October. Oh, God! It seemed that the panic, the adrenaline and all the worry I kept inside fled my body after hearing the news that I suddenly fell down the floor, feeling lost and so fucking miserable. My last thought was of Donatella. She'd be devastated.
During the wake, Donatella still didn't show up. My misery was beginning to morphed into anger. How could she be away during this time? I totally understood if she didn't want to say goodbye to her father. Yet, there's no other way to let go and move on but to forgive and to accept all at once this painful situation.
Mat had been a second father to me. He trusted me so much. He'd entrusted me his one special daughter. But I couldn't stop feeling that I've somehow disappointed him. Failed him. I've broken his trust because I totally lost his daughter.
During his burial, it was raining. He'd taken his rest beside his wife, Lyn. It was a solemn but a painful day to us. To me. The burial lasted only a short time before people slowly leaving the place, back to their own lives.
Until I was the only remaining person that stood there, under the rain, masking my tears while I cried. My consciousness suddenly peaked when I felt someone else's presence with me. I turned around and found Donatella about five meters away from where I stood. But when our eyes met, she suddenly turned around.
I jogged towards her, eager to catch and talk to her at once. "Donatella!"
She stopped but didn't turn around. My heart forgot that I felt angry with her. I couldn't because I loved her so damn much. I walked towards her and held her shoulder before turning her around. My heart twisted. She looked even worse.
"I'm sorry." I said.
She nodded. "I'm sorry, too. I just can't see him go."
She started to sob. I cried with her, too, before taking her in my arms. But she pulled back, shaking her head and putting a wide distance between us.
"Let's go home, baby." I softly said.
"I'm sorry." She heaved while her tears kept running down her face. "I'm sorry but I need to leave, Mitch. I have to go."
"Go where?" I asked, my panic was starting to show its ugly head.
"I just want to be away for a while."
"Baby, you don't have to be alone. I'm right here. We can mourn together. We can heal each other's wounds. Don't go, please." I pleaded in misery.
God, I couldn't lose her. I couldn't let her go.
"I'm really sorry, Mitch. Please don't try to find me. I need some time to think." With that, she turned and walked away.
"Donatella." I whispered because my sob was stuck in my throat.
I couldn't believe my own eyes. She's really going to leave me. My heart was slowly cracking inside my chest. Jesus! My heart was splitting in two. I felt like suffocating.
Don't go, Donatella! Please. Don't leave me! My mind pleaded where my mouth couldn't utter.
I dropped to my knees and leaned against a tree as I watched her go, feeling suddenly cold and empty. What happened to us? Please go to to read the latest chapters for free