Song Qingchun stood by the roadside until a taxi stopped. She got into the car and told the driver to take her to the hospital. The taxi soon entered the car stream.
Song Qingchun sat in the backseat, watching the billboards that whipped past the car window, and her eyes started to tear up. She could feel her heart falling into the darkened abyss, never to see the light again.
A love that she realized all too late had dragged on for a great half of a year before dying in the middle of autumn.
Someone once said, 'If you're in love and realize you're falling for another person, that second person will mostly likely be your real love because if you truly loved the first one, you would not have fallen in love with the second one.'
When she was obsessed with Qin Yinan, she had wondered if there would be another man greater than him. Fate seemed to be toying with her because she really did come across that another, but that 'another' was someone she could never be with.
The mist in her eyes condensed into tears, but Song Qingchun refused to let them fall.
The taxi stopped at the entrance of the hospital. Song Qingchun paid the driver and got out quietly. She then took one step after another toward the hospital. However, instead of heading toward the entrance, she turned toward the small garden at the back of the hospital. There was no one there, and it was there that Song Qingchun collapsed.
So unfortunate, I love you so, but I still need to leave you.
So regretful, love really needs courage, but your final cruelty has snuffed out the courage within me.
So disappointed, it is you who made me stop searching for love, but you were merely a stop.
Song Qingchun cried so hard that her whole body started to shake.
I hope I never come across another individual like you in the future again.
I hope I learn to forget you after these tears have finished falling.
Even though I'm unwilling and I don't think I'm able to, I have to let go…
Song Qingchun cried for long long time before she stopped. With a sniffle, she picked out a napkin and mirror from her bag. Using the garden light, she cleaned up her face. She took several deep breaths and slowly forced her tired body up. She closed her eyes and started to count-down internally silently from ten to one.
Ten: Su Zhinian, I don't regret meeting you.
Nine: Su Zhinian, I'm glad to have met you.
Eight: Su Zhinian, I'm happy we were once so close.
Seven: Su Zhinian, I regret having those fights with you.
Six: Su Zhinian, I'm thankful to God for giving me the opportunity to meet you again five years later.
Five: Su Zhinian, thank you for everything you've done for me, from Su Empire to saving my life.
Four: Su Zhinian, I realize I'm in love with you.
Three: Su Zhinian, I love you.
Two: Su Zhinian, goodbye.
Song Qingchun paused for a moment before counting the last number. Following the 'one', she thought, Su Zhinian, farewell.
Su Zhinian… I wish you well after we go our separate ways.
This was Song Qingchun's final thought on the matter.
Should we meet again in the future, you will not see the Song Qingchun who once depleted all the courage within her to love you.
Song Qingchun tried her best to curve her lips into a faded smile. Then she slowly moved toward the hospital building on her high heels.