My Wife Is A Beautiful Ceo Chapter 309
Chapter 309: If If If
If If If
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Yang Chen felt that there seemed to be something wrong with Cai Yans mood as he looked at such a facial expression. He didnt understand what was going on. Curious, he asked, What is it? What happened?
To be honest, do you feel that being together with me and eating with me are both a waste of your precious time? Cai Yan asked emotionlessly.
Yang Chen got dumbfounded. Frowning, he asked, Cai Yan, what do you mean? Why did you suddenly say that?
What do I mean? Cai Yan snorted coldly. Do you possibly mind your own business and finish your food in three minutes without saying anything when you eat with other women before biting a toothpick while you wait for them to slowly finish their food?
Yang Chen vaguely understood why Cai Yan was mad. Smiling awkwardly, he said, Im really sorry. I thought you were all about effectiveness since youre a police, and I also dont know what to say to you. Actually, finishing my food in three minutes is my usual speed when I eat alone. I didnt mean anything else by it, I didnt know thisd displease you.
Cai Yan turned dismal. Police In your eyes, except for the fact that Im a police, could I possibly also not be a woman?
Yang Chen listened to her silently. He too felt rather weird in his heart, since he really didnt see Cai Yan as a beauty he could admire, unlike the other women around him.
Although Cai Yans appearance and body were both exceptional, he had a few bad memories regarding her. Together with the way Cai Yan spoke and handled tasks, Yang Chen found it hard to equate this lady to a beauty.
I I really didnt think of this question before, Yang Chen answered honestly.
Cai Yan said softly, I specially put on makeup before leaving the house and coming here today. I even carefully selected a restaurant. Do you know what i did all this for?
Yang Chen wasnt an idiot. He could connect the dots as he thought of the time where she gave him a Rolex watch, the matter where she did her best to look after Zhenxiu, and the way she spoke and acted for a few times, especially today when she asked him out for lunch after going out of her way to dress up nicely
Although Yang Chen felt that it was rather unbelievable, Cai Yan evidently had that kind of feelings for him.
Yang Chen felt a massive headache. If it was him back then, he wouldnt even have time to celebrate if there was such a beautiful police officer coming to his door herself. He definitely wouldnt refuse the visitor. However today, Yang Chen felt rather afraid when he met a beauty who willingly clung to him. He had always felt apologetic towards the few ladies around him. If he got involved with this beautiful police officer as well, or even took in a few more in the future, Yang Chen felt that his nerves would split one day. The guilt he held in his heart towards every woman of his was enough to make him seek death due to the pain.
Seeing that Yang Chen wasnt talking, Cai Yan bit her lower lip and said, You can definitely tell what Im thinking after what Ive done. Dont even try to avoid this.
Cai Yan, I really came out just to return your handbag today. Yang Chen didnt know how to reject Cai Yan. He could only push her away indirectly.
Cai Yans face expressed disappointment, but soon turned to hatred. She felt like she had to get her dissatisfaction and resentment off her chest as soon as possible!
Cai Yan gazed at Yang Chen directly as tears filled up her eyes. Smiling disdainfully, she said, Yang Chen, do you know that this seems to be the first time in my life that I got rejected by a man?
My family, influence, career, and face that even women are envious of, are all useless when Im faced with such a man...
Whether you can give me a fulfilling love life or not is already a problem. Other women must be mocking me for my stupidity
Return the handbag to me? Humph, how much money is this damned bag worth Let me tell you, I have never cared about stuff like this!
If you have considered my feelings for even the slightest bit, before you sat down in front of me and said what you did earlier, you would at least ask yourself if you had to speak this brutally or not, so brutal that you caused cut wounds to appear all over the body of a woman who isnt very confident, a woman who just wants to speak to you!
I dont have to ask you to come to such a place, just to take back a bag thats worth two thousand bucks Cant I live by my own if I dont see you?!
Dont I have a nicer bag?! Dont I have time to go there and take it myself?! Does the situation not allow me to do that?! Or do I not have the money to even get a bag
Cai Yans voice became really loud at last, but she didnt attract much attention from the other customers since the restaurant was located by the road, causing the noise outside to be rather apparent.
Yang Chens body appeared to be stiff on his seat. Cai Yans words acted just like nails as they got hammered into his heart. Although he didnt have the feelings that he held towards his other women to Cai Yan, Yang Chen knew that this daring lady left a unforgettable impression to him, regardless if he liked her or not.
Cai Yan saw that Yang Chen still didnt answer her. Contempt appeared in her eyes. Smiling, she said, Do you possibly think that Id develop feelings to a man who sees more value in a two-thousand-dollar bag than me? Do you really think Id constantly think about him in an entire day, a week, or a month?!
Yang Chen knew that he couldnt avoid much. Cai Yans confession made him feel disdainful towards himself, but he definitely couldnt say he loved her, itd even be tough for him to say that he liked her. The relationship between him and her was merely limited within friendship, not to mention she was Lin Ruoxis close friend. Even if he wanted to divorce Lin Ruoxi, there was still no reason for him to get involved with her close friend.
After calming his emotions, Yang Chen said solemnly, Cai Yan, I really dont know what to do for the feelings you have for me, but you should know that Im already married. Ruoxi is your good friend, its impossible for us to work out.
You guys are only married on the surface, bound by a contract, arent you? Cai Yan asked directly.
Yang Chens scalp quickly went numb as his heart jumped violently. He didnt expect that Cai Yan would know about him and Lin Ruoxi no matter what.
Do you feel very surprised? She told me these because you didnt return home at night after arguing with her. Actually, even if she didnt tell me, Ive never believed that you two got married out of true love. Ruoxi isnt that kind of woman who would suddenly get married. Shes more calm than everyone else, its impossible that she got married out of nowhere, Cai Yan said. Now, do you still want to use Ruoxi as an excuse to reject me?
Yang Chen smiled bitterly. I really didnt expect you to know about this, but I still cant accept you even if Ruoxi and I arent truly married. Doing this would be unfair to both you and her. If I hadnt married Ruoxi back then, if the first time we met wasnt in the police station, then the outcome may have come out differently. However, now I really cant accept your feelings. I dont want to trick you, and dont want to trick myself as well.
Cai Yan tried her best to resist from tearing. Turning her head around, she smiled in grievance, saying, If if if
The word if is what I hate the most in the world. Everything took place already, isnt it useless to say that word? But after meeting you, especially the day you saved my life in the building, Ive always been thinking of this term.
If I had the chance to be the first one to know you, if you met me first, if I didnt stupidly think that you were a bad guy, if you didnt get married with Ruoxi
If I was given an opportunity to start over, I definitely wouldnt waste every single second of being together with you. This is what I think, if your marriage is just a deal and a piece of paper, am I still considered too late? If you can, can you also give me a chance?
After listening to Cai Yans sleep-talking-like words, Yang Chen suddenly realized that he had neglected too many things on this woman, but so what is this was the case? Stuff like feelings wouldnt come true just because one wanted it to. It couldnt be stopped if it wanted to come, and couldnt be found when it didnt want to come.
Smiling apologetically, Yang Chen said, Im sorry, this isnt the matter of chance. We could be good friends, but Ive never had the thought of making you my woman. This doesnt mean youre inferior to the women around me, its just that I cant force myself to develop that kind of feelings, so I really cant promise you anything.
If thats the case, why did you save me recklessly in the building while youre facing so many people and bullets? Cai Yan asked as she was unwilling to give up.
Yang Chen shook his head. I wasnt reckless. I only saved you because youre Ruoxis friend, and also a good police woman. To me, the bullets arent dangerous at all.
Youre lying to me. You must be hating me. You hate me because I used to treat you so badly, dont you? Cai Yans voice became rather shaky.
I didnt lie to you, and I also dont hate you. It is true that I saved you, but this cant represent anything. Ive rescued many people and killed countless as well. This is the most common thing to me. Yang Chen couldnt hold it anymore. He said, You can actually pick a much better man. A fellow like me who can never be faithful doesnt deserve your tears.
Cai Yan laughed for a while. It was unknown who she was laughing at. It seems like Ive misunderstood the situation. You may leave now.
As soon as she finished speaking, Cai Yan picked up her bowl and chopsticks before starting to eat.
Yang Chen didnt leave. He frowned as he worriedly looked at Cai Yan.
Cai Yan wiped her tears and raised her head before revealing a bright smile. Do you think Im a sixteen-year-old teenager? Just because I got rejected by a man, Ill do stupid things like jumping out of the building or cutting my wrist? Leave, I hate to see you now.
Yang Chen knew that Cai Yan must be detesting him in her heart now, but nothing came out of his mouth when he tried to console her. Rejecting a love confession was indeed very difficult. Yang Chen couldnt imagined, Will I be able to reject someone when it comes to a woman who loves me, who is also a woman I love?
Yang Chen stood up and left the restaurant as he brought his heavy mood.
Cai Yan put down her bowl and chopsticks the moment Yang Chens figure stepped out of the restaurants door. She lay her head on the table and her shoulders shivered as she started to cry in silence.